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The Inner Garden

I had to lose you to become myself again. It’s sad and I wish there would have been another way, but since humans are not supposed to change the past, I’m finally getting along with my life without you. I had to lose you, surround myself with a bunch of new friends and travel to Berlin all alone, to figure out that you breaking up with me – which by the way was the scariest and most terrifying thing ever – set me free to finally being myself again. I struggled for years with the dissatisfactions in my life. Unhappy with how things were, how things turned out and finally with me. I used to think of myself as a weak person. Being unable to be alone, unable to lay in bed with an empty space by my side and in need of someone planting and caring for the flowers growing inside my body. Growing inside my heart. Growing in my inner garden. But I sleep alone now, I sit on my balcony, looking at …